Rue's Story

A few years ago, I survived from a crisis, physically injured and emotionally damaged. It happened all of a sudden; and I was scared, desperate, easily agitated, lost. Physically I recovered after a couple of months, but since then I tried to block out every feeling; except flashbacks and nightmares kept me awake without any way out.

Then I was referred to RainLily. It was an enclosed and peaceful place with just me and my counsellor, which made me feel at ease. For the first time since it happened, I felt I was safe enough to let out my emotions. I broke down and cried, but felt a little relieved too.

I became a regular visitor for the next three years. It was a difficult journey as I built trust with my counsellor, and especially hard when I had to dig out, re-cap and face my fears, grief, shame and all other feelings from the bottom of my heart. I took an extremely long time and great effort to learn to trust and talk about my feelings. But she was patient, caring and respectful; repeatedly affirming and comforting me when I was upset while waiting and not pushing me to speak when I was not ready.

Gradually I did learn to open up, deal with my feelings, and accept who I am, instead of running away and shutting myself out. There were a lot of ups and downs as I went through different negative feelings, but my counsellor repeatedly encouraged me and walked with me; listening to me when I shared with tears and teaching me to relax when I was stressed.

RainLily has helped me grow to be a stronger person and to embrace my experience. I am thankful for this place, my counsellor and other volunteers who showed their support through little things (such as wall decorations). This journey has not been easy at all, but I was grateful for all the help I have received.

(Name has been changed at the request of the author.)